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Saturday, March 14, 2009

Phonexing myself!

Its been some time since I last blogged and spilled out the truest me. Ok, its time now, that I write about myself since the last time I blogged-till date. I know its been ages, but still I'll make an attempt to recollect all that I have felt within this time frame.
Gosh, what a roller coaster ride it has been all this while. Work was good when I wrote for the magazine, later it became mundane, repetitive, making my life like a pond with algae and the stench of that boring period was so much that I felt and still feel exasperated thinking about it. It made me realise one simple thing- "No matter how cool and handsome your boss looks, he will always be the most hated person in your life." Working like mad, like I always do, made me feel, "God, I am not being valued despite putting in so much!" Result? A complete loss of confidence and my true myself.

But the underlining truth was, he like my past bosses/superiors felt threatened by me. And I realised this, only once I left my job and came in this one where I am now. What a waste of time I feel it was. Never mind. I learn't a lot, went places, met good people. That's optimism. Now, my present work is more satisfying and thankfully, unlike the past my Boss does not feel threatened by me. He has a strength of character just like me. hahahahhaha. And I like that. Hey, I should rather not praise him too much. 'Coz whenever I have praised any of my boss, soon after she/he has turned into a devil and me the reluctant Devil's advocate. But in all this, I should rather thank God that despite turmoils, tiffs, and the grandeur recession I was moving, never gave up!

Ok, enough about work now. Often, people complain that they do not have 'Friends'. Luckily, no such problem has ever happened with me. My friends have stood by me through all the thick and thin this while. I'm thankful and grateful to all of them. I don't tell all them that often. But yes, each has a special place in my life. Mom as usual has been my food for thought, pillar of strength and all that cannot be put in simple words. Ya, in between, I developed a great bond with Donna. Infact, I was always eager for that. But she, as supercilious as she is, never gave me any 'BHAU'. But now, thankfully she realises that I am as much part of the family as she is and gives me that attention I had always craved for from her.

Ya, the best thing I could ever do- I slapped the one who deserved, threw him out of my mind forever and have realised that I have moved a long way ahead. Besides, I also feel, that what did I see in him? May be I had just lost it completely! I bumped into him. God he was looking awful and I reiterated in my mind "He is worth dumping and no better"! Thank you God for saving me from that mean and moody man.

Thank you also for all the ups and downs all this while. Had they not been there, I would not have sought out my life and retrospected this pragmatically. Love you. Keep guiding my path like you have always done and never let me go astray.

Love you!!!
Anjali

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